Childhood Memories.

Princess Gaia
4 min readDec 23, 2022
Photo by Rodion Kutsaiev on Unsplash

The first time I died knowingly, I was seven years old. I was sitting in my room, in my hideaway, with the back against the cold radiator, my usual place. The others were playing in the garden. It was summer. And it was hot out there. My back was leaning against the cool radiator. And I pretended to read. The book in my hands protected me from being abruptly disturbed in my daydream.

Now that I think about it, it probably was not my first death. However, it is the first one I remember.

How I died that day is lacking in the memory. That I was dead is clearly traceable.

I can still see my grave. I can see people weeping. I can hear voices. And I can still understand what they are saying.

I can even see myself. Me, standing at the grave with all those others. I am wearing a white robe. I am standing next to the others. I am calling out, look at me, I am still here. I am not dead. Only a part of me has died. See me, I am yelling. See me!

I was crying. About me. Because of the far too short life of a wonderfully talented and joyful being. A daughter, a sister, a friend. About the spirit of a dead child who was still alive and yet remained unnoticed.

At one point, my mother called for dinner.



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